And boy, I haven't been active on here at all this summer. Not just on my DA page, but I've also been taking forever to reply to messages. And I've just been skimming on here, I favourite something I like but I don't leave comments because I try to limit my time on here as much as possible. I guess I'll leave a detailed explanation as to why I've been so quiet lately. Please forgive me as I may ramble on. Also, if you don't care much about why I'm inactive, I do have a paragraph on the bottom of the journal on my commission status.
For the month of May I had to work hardcore on my costume and my sister's costume for Anime North. Sure, I made those Space Ace pieces ''Even if we have to fly across the universe... '' and ''Forget about him, and choose me!'' but I really shouldn't have because it resulted in me having to work super hard on our costumes and pulling all nighter's a week before the convention. The costumes turned out great... but I was really tired when we got to the convention so I didn't enjoy myself as much as I normally would. This kinda destroyed my motivation to work on stuff for conventions again. I was supposed to go as Genis with my roommate to Otakuthon, but I was so emotionally drained from working on my Anime North costume that the motivation to work on costumes completely died on me. It doesn't help that my passion for conventions just isn't there anymore. I'm hoping it will come back to me in the future because I had so much fun in previous years.
This was the biggest culprit behind my lack of activity back in June and July. Sure, I'd work on practice sketches and I helped work on a comic. But aside from that, as soon as I got back home from work I would grab my computer and waste away my day playing video games(Mainly Skyrim). If I wasn't playing Skyrim then I kinda just sat down and stared at nothing for a while. I don't really want to go into many details as too why I was so lazy, but let's just say that work took it's toll on me again this year and it's been stressing me out yet again.
Finally, I got really upset with myself that I haven't been productive at all this summer. Some might say that I shouldn't have to be productive all the time, and I should just take a break. But honestly it eats me up that I wasted so much of my time in June in July. So, lately I've been watching so many tutorials on how I can improve my style. I've been doing a lot of thumbnails, hand practice, a little bit of life drawing, and I've been really happy with the results. This has also sparked my motivation to start working on a personal project that I've been wanting to work on for a long time. I've been working on concept designs for characters, creatures, and backgrounds. I've been working on poses references for the main characters. I've even been doing some full pieces of the main characters, but not on computer. I've gone back to working on traditional stuff again and I forgot how much I've missed it. Who knows, I might work on some fan pieces and post some of my paintings on here soon, but I'm honestly more focused on my original stuff right now. I'm realizing now, after a couple of years that working on a comic really tied me down. I was so focused on keeping it alive every week that I never gave time to work on personal stuff. I guess that's another reason as to why I had to drop my Platinum Nuzlocke, because I knew it would take years for me to work on it(I estimated 5-8 years) and it would have just got in the way of other things I want to work on. It's also why I shouldn't have tried working on another Nuzlocke comic, and I dropped it as soon as it started. Whoops...
So, this is what's been going on. Convention in May, total laziness in June and July, and working on original projects in August. I'm really sorry that I've been so quiet and I hope everyone understands. I'll try to work on stuff that I wouldn't mind posting on here soon, but I'm really not sure if I will before I have to put art aside so I can focus on school. We'll see how things go. Thank you so much for being patient with me and I hope everyone has a wonderful day! ^^
Before I end things off I do want to get something off my chest and talk about commissions. I don't think I'll ever take commissions again. Before I say why let me apologize in advance that I'm not trying to come off as rude and I really don't want to offend anyone. I just really want to throw my opinion out there because I've been having very strong views on this lately. So my art has improved significantly and I know that. I also feel like I've improved so much that working for 3-5 days on an art piece and only earning $30 is not worth my time anymore. I actually find it kinda sad that I make more money working for three hours at my job than working on an art piece for three days(minimum wage is $11.25 in Ontario, and it's going up to $11.50 soon) At first I didn't mind it because my art could've used improvements and I thought the commissions not only earned me money but it also helped me improve. But now that I have other means on helping myself improve, the commissions aren't worth it. Some artists start cheap and slowly make their stuff expensive as time goes on, well that's not how I want to work. I'm sorry, but if I'm going to put my time and effort into something I'd like to at least earn my time and efforts worth. Also, because I'm doing my stuff traditional now I would have to make enough money to replace what I use for commission because watercolours and acrylics are expensive. Very expensive!
I'm really sorry for those who used to order art from me before and I'm sorry to those who were interested in my art and were waiting for me to take commissions. Maybe this is some disappointing news and I may have sounded rude, and I'm sorry for that as well. It's just not worth my time, and it's not worth the stress commissions cause me.
Have a wonderful day!~